“Punk is not about clothing or hairstyles. It is about the energy drawn from a broken heart in the face of a relentless fate. It’s the ability to read between the lines and to stand one’s ground.“ Glen Matlock (former bass player fort the Sex Pistols)
“Obstacles are not blocking the path. They are the path.” Zen saying
My job as an artist is to poke tiny holes in the perception of reality – to shed light on all things that are abandoned, neglected, or hidden out of sight.
I want my audience to remember that there is more to life than what we think is acceptable – in each one of us and in society. In my work I am looking for the fragile beauty and poetry of existence. But also, for the creative strength, that lurks in dark places and for the wildness in the things we neglect.
I create abstract and figurative paintings with homemade natural paint and earth pigments. For my illustrative drawings I use pencils, charcoal, and ink and let myself be inspired by myths and my own stories. I also make textile art with natural materials like wool, linen, and old and abandoned clothing.
About my art
When I paint, I add layer upon layer. The more I add the deeper I dig it seems. It’s like I want to find the hidden core underneath it all.
My drawings are bold and fragile at once. They show either moments of stillness or moments of movement.
When working with textiles I am fascinated by turning old cloth into something new by mending, stitching, and painting.
My quest as an artist – and the story behind it
My artistic quest is to excavate what we like to keep hidden – and to remind us, that we all belong.
I guess, his has a lot to do with my own experiences. Early in life I learned that there are many things I should keep quiet and even feel ashamed about – like the fact that my father was a violent alcoholic.
To get away from all this, I often escaped into nature – playing in the mud or running through the vineyards with my dog.
A wild and troublesome friend
Besides nature, art has always been my truest ally – because it was my way of communicating with the world.
But I soon realised that this ally can also be a source for trouble. In school I was scorned for it and my attempts to enter art school once resulted in a letter saying that I completely lack talent. That was a blow. But I went on nevertheless – not realizing that my art more and more shrank.
Secrets, a bulky suitcase, and a turning point
Looking back now, it felt like I was carrying my art and secrets around in a far too bulky suitcase – one that I was not supposed to own, but that was chained to my wrist. The damn thing slowed my down, because it was so heavy. I was too afraid to unpack it – because I believed I was not allowed too. But a part of me rebelled. Because like my art, I guess I am both fragile and bold. Secretly I took out things at random – but only when I was out of sight. So, I never quit making art. I only made it in secret. What a paradox, because I had a lot of successful art shows when I started out – despite what art schools and teachers told me. But looking back now, I think my unresolved childhood trauma put more and more pressure on me.
Until one day I broke apart – literally. In 2018 I had a sepsis and ended up in a coma. When I awoke, I couldn’t move, talk or see properly. Luckily, I still had all my limbs. In the following year I learned to walk, talk, think and paint again. And I also learned to look inside myself to see the beauty and strength in all that lay hidden inside that suitcase.
A new persepective
I have unpacked that suitcase. Today I wear the garments with a smile on my face – the beautiful ones as much as the weird and the torn. My experiences taught me so much – that life is short and that we are all in it together. And that we should embrace what we abandoned and thought of as not good enough. That is my quest in my art – to dig deep for all that we left behind and to encourage to embrace it all.
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I live and work as a freelance artist and author in a Norwegian house in Windeck near Cologne in Germany.
Before I came here, I lived in Berlin, Switzerland, Luxemburg and many other places. But the quietness and the wild nature made me fall in love with my new home. The landscape is so inspiring.
Natural paint is something I am really passionate about – and I like to pass on my knowledge. That’s why you find many recipes in my blog to try for yourself.
Almost all of my paintings are made with natural materials such as egg tempera, charcoal, earth, ink and fibers. And I also dye fabric with plants or make my own ink. Maybe I can induce you with my enthusiasm for these great materials.
Fine Art and Stage Design with Pauline Disson and Abuzer Güler at die Etage, Berlin
Cultural studies (literature and history) at FernUni Hagen
Media Design digital/print at L4 in Berlin
2017 KUNSTRAUM, Herchener Malkasten, Windeck
2016 Feuer, Wasser, Erde, Luft, Theater am Park, Eitorf*
2013/2014 jede Menge kleine Pop-up Ausstellungen
2012 ALL ALONG THE WITCHTOWER, Walberberg
2011 SHREDS, Museum Föhren
2009 QUIET, KunstAusstellung, Schweich
2007 – 2008 Interimsgalerie in der Hosenstr, Trier
2006 Temporärer Ausstellungsraum in der Pallasstraße, Trier
2005 FORGOTTEN, Kunstverein K&K im Kankenhaus, Trier
2004 BLOODMONEY, Bider & Tanner, Basel, Schweiz
2003 SPUREN DER ZEIT, Residenz Engelsplatz, Lörrach*
2003 Le Nouveau Printemps, Pézenas, Frankreich
2003 Städtische Galerie Villa Aichele, Lörrach*
2002 Mas les Micocouliers, Montagnac, Frankreich
2001 Galerie Nunatak, Berlin
2001 Berolina Schriftbild, Berlin
2000 Galerie im Uhrturm, Dierdorf
* group show